To An Old Friend · Jan 31, 09:13 PM
I miss you so much sometimes. I’ve been dreaming a lot lately and this morning I dreamed my mom and I were at your apartment in Manhattan attending the wedding of Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes. Matt was not in the picture, you were still living with Mary. Some of the rooms had no ceilings and it was raining. One of the windows overlooked the roof of a building with lots of HVAC equipment, like my old apartment on 10th street in Huntington. I was smoking and flipped my ashes out the window. I’m very often smoking in my dreams and then realizing I’m doing something bad but not doing anything about it because it seems like a fait accompli. And then you and I were on another roof and I didn’t want to go home but you had to go so you held me, in the dark and rain with my mom in the shadows.
— Jennifer
